Have you ever felt excited yet dreadful for something?
Have you ever felt happy yet sad at the sometime?
Have you ever fell in love with someone yet hate him/her at the same time?
Have you felt that shes your best friend and worst enermy at the same time?
If you did, congrats. Im feeling all of this now and more than what is mentioned. Camp is tmr, im actually excited for the experience and getting to know people better and stuff yet leaving friends, internet & phone which means no contact with you guys kills. I don’t know but i’ve been so confused lately. It is bad, really bad. I just read so many people blogs but can’t tag cause its blocked out but, Xi ying’s blog. “The home feeling that we have when we are in PL compared to JC life” I really do miss PL, I feel really sad though that i can’t really meet up with friends and talk to them about the most random stuff(: It sucks. I can feel that im also drifting away from them. They are studying so much which is good but its kinda sad that im not studying the same thing and not being able to study together and stressing out together and all that. i miss it so much. I miss ranting to them all my unhappy stuff and than hearing in return.
31 Aug- Set off to camp, look to the sky and remember me. Im flying to camp site.
1 Aug- Happy Teachers’ Day!
2 Aug- ‘N’ Levels start
im still so attached to PL.
Happy Teachers’ Day;
Ms Kelso:D, Ms Tyson, Ms Petrie, Mr Harrison, Ms Pap(in st marys but apparently we don’t celebrate teachers day here).
Ms Adeline Loh:D, Mrs Selina Lum, Ms Mabel Goh, Ms Tessa Tan, Ms Audrey Chia, Mrs Sharon Tng, Mrs Wong Yu Ting, Chen Lao Shi, Ms Deepa, Mrs Chew CL, Mr Ng EK, Ms Sheryl Ting, Ms Seet SY,Ms Cheryln Chew, Mdm Carrie Ho,Mrs Nair, Mrs Han.(sec)sorry if i missed out anyone) PL Teachers of all time, thank you so much each one of you. You really did make my life a great one(: 
Ms Goh Siew Hoon:D(pri)
I do aspire to be a teacher, in which school im not sure. I might be one in St Marys who knows. I really wish that the teachers here would reach out more to the students and they themself be an example. I feel hurt for many people here, students. Screwed.

‘N’ Levels, jiayou 4d1 and 4d2! i miss you guys so much. All our lessons, all our NA spirit! :D i miss it plenty loads. I miss stressing out on you guys as well. all the best! i hope your did really study. take care! Take care of your health! trust Abba!
<3
camppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp. mixed feelings again.
shitzxzxzxzx.
i feel so distant from everyone, including everyone from harp. Its different, it feels different. No more problems sharing, no more crapping, no more screaming, no more crying, no more stressing and freaking out together, no more scolding each other for things that is unhealthy): no more no more no more no more closeness.
Kept thinking of PL on CAPAF(on fri) arts/music= reminds me of PL, the unity = PL. Everything, PL. this sucks. I guess my camp might remind of PL’s sec3 camp as well. take careeee<3

im numb, emotions numbed.
sometimes i dont care anymore,
i dont cry like how i used to when i feel upset.
friendship is the worst thing that is trying to kill me.
suddenly, i dont know if i care what your are doing anymore.
Being all alone this weekend makes me think more,
Im numbed by all of the different actions your do and the words your say.
im sick of unreveling your lies,
im tired of putting up with you people at times,
im sick of having this awkardness during dinner and all the meals.
Im numbed, it seems like i dont care.
or maybe not, getting angry,
being pissed, wetting my eyes,
going to bed early to "ignore" the problems,
not wanting to share with your things afraid of being upset?
"break my heart for what break yours;"
from the song Hosanna by Hillsong.
The amount of pain Daddy suffer is unbearable. I don't know what to do anymore.
Help...
wheres home? 4 months time, home will be there waiting for me.