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Didn’t know that its mooncake festival until tham lao shi told me! (ms tham sook lai) Primary school teacher whom i am still in contact via msn 
Beams, dreaming of the old good times of double york mooncake! yum.
Happy mooncake/lantern/mid-autumn festival/中秋节快乐! Mooncake w/o the york will satisfy me now. After tham lao shi told me that it is mooncake festival(what you call it in Singapore). After coming back to the boarding house, i realised that it is a full moon. a very clear view from my room that is full moon. Thinking of when i used to look outside my window from my bedroom in Singapore and just gaze at the sky. Man, im so missing all that. Anyway, i miss the electricity lanterns and the real litted lanterns (:
Isn’t it so pretty? all in singapore ;D oh well, beaming for mooncake!
hee, alright im going off now, just happy happy zhong qiu jie! staring at the full moon. Hey the moon reflects light of a cross! light on the four side! how interesting anyway, gotta study. Take Care folks!
Hello.
Just practised piano for solid 2 hours. Its been really long since i last did that. Practising piano felt really good although thoughts were haunting my mine but really it made me feel much better whee. From now on, i shall and should practise more piano ;D Have been kinda lazy and not practising, result, piano teacher sort of lecturing me. Hmm. Alright, charlene have to buck up in studies yay. Im gonna get 90+ from now on.(i can only trust the Lord and not myself as you can see)
Dear Budd Xi Ying,
Jiayou I miss you so much. Also, you always encourage me on last time! Now you must perseverewith our source of everything Jesus. I miss you plenty): Your postcards and small little encouragement cards are right infront of me now-pinned up on the board. I miss you, you wrote this when i was in sec2 i think? early sec2 or in sec1on a post card. “I can understand if you distant yourself away from us but i am really sorry that things have to end up this way. But i will always still be your buddy encouraging and supporting you.” I miss you. Take care buddy, its not good to be stressed dear!
My little jiaen to bigbuttbarney to pok kai to xiao hong(:
Thanks for making me so high and not letting me put down the phone till i almost pee in my shorts rah! haha, i miss you so much. You just crack me up last night! Man, i really miss talking to you and how we will go mad during and after music o level. ;D OH! haha, also graeme morton workshop(hint) lift hahaha. to my xiao hong, i know you will get what i mean! and all the music concerts that we had to watch. HAHA!(treat/supper) if you get it. hoho. Man, i miss you so much. I wish you are here with me, i miss number 1-ing with you so much. Well its good that you don’t have already. haha, and ytd ah, you ah… im happy that you look forward to those subjects but why you look forward to them. HMM hahhaha! talking to herself ;P alright, study hard okay! can’t wait to see you. YAY i miss you xiao hong from xiao hu? haha, ex-pok kai partner (: Take care!
Feel kinda happy now when i think of you guys (: You all make my day
JIAYOU FOR N LEVELS AND O LEVELS! take care.
the urge to talk to you yet the grudge to bother you neutralises but bothers me so much everytime.
i want to die now. right at this moment right at this point. RIGHT NOW.
shit, i feel dam demoralised and defeated. i can really feel this spear that went right through my heart. i can even see it. dam pain, dam pain. Someone hear me out. i hate this place, there is no one i can trust much. SUCK FEST. shit.
Lord please do not fail me.
This is so bad, really very bad.
Friends are failing me.
Results are failing me.
Teachers are failing me.
Health is failing me.
Almost everything is failing me.
Friends: Conflicts btw two diff friends again, it is really so irritating.
Results: I am practically failing everything now, really really-it may be boarderline fail but its still a F.
Teachers: They are giving me a F mark ): and they are stressing me up like crap. Not replying also(if you know what i mean)
Health: Flu is invading me but i bind it in Jesus name. Bleeding quite abit(fingernails, cut too deep bled a lot; thumb hurts now): )
Lord help me Lord!
matthew 8:17
Jesus, help help help. I need wisdom from you Lord.
also i’ve been feeling really tired.-although i sleep EARLIER than usual. freaks me out. HELP LORD!
Amen.
Hey Guys,
IM BACKKKKKKkK
omg, camp was crap but fun though.
sunday: reached the other side of Perth, waited for really long.
monday: Surf Rafting and Planting( at the vineyard)
tuesday: Rest Rules(cooking comp) and Abseiling(omg, i almost died)
wednesday: whale watching(was realllyyy good), lighthouse(good as well) and movie making(funny)
thursday: walking 10km and bike riding(almost died)
friday: team building games and home sweet home
Will update more another time. need to unpack and stuff and call mummy(:
take careeee<3
Sunset
Take care guys,
do well for N levels please! (: cant wait to see your when your get your results!<3
Once again, happy tchrs day!
Bye, im off for camp. The excited yet dreadful feeling is still there ):
will be updating this fri (evening/night) or sat (:
xoxo.
Have you ever felt excited yet dreadful for something?
Have you ever felt happy yet sad at the sometime?
Have you ever fell in love with someone yet hate him/her at the same time?
Have you felt that shes your best friend and worst enermy at the same time?
If you did, congrats. Im feeling all of this now and more than what is mentioned. Camp is tmr, im actually excited for the experience and getting to know people better and stuff yet leaving friends, internet & phone which means no contact with you guys kills. I don’t know but i’ve been so confused lately. It is bad, really bad. I just read so many people blogs but can’t tag cause its blocked out but, Xi ying’s blog. “The home feeling that we have when we are in PL compared to JC life” I really do miss PL, I feel really sad though that i can’t really meet up with friends and talk to them about the most random stuff(: It sucks. I can feel that im also drifting away from them. They are studying so much which is good but its kinda sad that im not studying the same thing and not being able to study together and stressing out together and all that. i miss it so much. I miss ranting to them all my unhappy stuff and than hearing in return.
31 Aug- Set off to camp, look to the sky and remember me. Im flying to camp site.
1 Aug- Happy Teachers’ Day!
2 Aug- ‘N’ Levels start
im still so attached to PL.
Happy Teachers’ Day;
Ms Kelso:D, Ms Tyson, Ms Petrie, Mr Harrison, Ms Pap(in st marys but apparently we don’t celebrate teachers day here).
Ms Adeline Loh:D, Mrs Selina Lum, Ms Mabel Goh, Ms Tessa Tan, Ms Audrey Chia, Mrs Sharon Tng, Mrs Wong Yu Ting, Chen Lao Shi, Ms Deepa, Mrs Chew CL, Mr Ng EK, Ms Sheryl Ting, Ms Seet SY,Ms Cheryln Chew, Mdm Carrie Ho,Mrs Nair, Mrs Han.(sec)sorry if i missed out anyone) PL Teachers of all time, thank you so much each one of you. You really did make my life a great one(:
Ms Goh Siew Hoon:D(pri)
I do aspire to be a teacher, in which school im not sure. I might be one in St Marys who knows. I really wish that the teachers here would reach out more to the students and they themself be an example. I feel hurt for many people here, students. Screwed.
‘N’ Levels, jiayou 4d1 and 4d2! i miss you guys so much. All our lessons, all our NA spirit! i miss it plenty loads. I miss stressing out on you guys as well. all the best! i hope your did really study. take care! Take care of your health! trust Abba!
<3
camppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp. mixed feelings again.
shitzxzxzxzx.
i feel so distant from everyone, including everyone from harp. Its different, it feels different. No more problems sharing, no more crapping, no more screaming, no more crying, no more stressing and freaking out together, no more scolding each other for things that is unhealthy): no more no more no more no more closeness.
Kept thinking of PL on CAPAF(on fri) arts/music= reminds me of PL, the unity = PL. Everything, PL. this sucks. I guess my camp might remind of PL’s sec3 camp as well. take careeee<3
im numb, emotions numbed.
sometimes i dont care anymore,
i dont cry like how i used to when i feel upset.
friendship is the worst thing that is trying to kill me.
suddenly, i dont know if i care what your are doing anymore.
Being all alone this weekend makes me think more,
Im numbed by all of the different actions your do and the words your say.
im sick of unreveling your lies,
im tired of putting up with you people at times,
im sick of having this awkardness during dinner and all the meals.
Im numbed, it seems like i dont care.
or maybe not, getting angry,
being pissed, wetting my eyes,
going to bed early to "ignore" the problems,
not wanting to share with your things afraid of being upset?
"break my heart for what break yours;"
from the song Hosanna by Hillsong.
The amount of pain Daddy suffer is unbearable. I don't know what to do anymore.
Help...
wheres home? 4 months time, home will be there waiting for me.
HAPPY early TEACHERS’ DAY!
have a great celebration in marvellous PL!
i miss the nice celebrations!
